Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Knowing......


"Sometimes, if you lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known."     Pooh's Little Instruction Book


It's too cold to go running in the woods. Too cold to walk by the water or take the kids and go down to 'cherry hill' where the chickadees and woodpeckers fly right into your hands. 

It's too cold to stand on the hills and feel the soft breeze in my hair, or hear the sounds of the quiet and calm and nature - or to listen uninterupted for His whisper in my spirit......


It's too cold....really cold....But everything inside me yearns to be outside - in the woods, in the hills, .....listening and feeling His presence.....I miss looking up and seeing the hawks, and turkey vultures and blueherons flying with their beautiful wings outstretched - soaring as if they own the sky. I miss feeling the warmth of the sun and the gentle breeze and seeing the deer passing by....It's the place I feel free. It's where I feel safe. And it's where my heart sings..

It's too cold...really cold. There's at least four more months to go - if not five. If I close my eyes, I can imagine it and even feel as if I'm there....but it's not the same as being there - as experiencing it. 
It's cold....just like how my heart used to feel....cold..hard. Angry. Really angry and full of of hate...It was a like a shield that wouldn't let anyone in...or let anyone stay. And I wouldn't stay. But things have changed. Somehow He opened my heart....softed it and helped me stay. I have the best friends....the best family....How did that happen? 


Guys - I just had to write today. I had to put something down here because writing for me is like running in the woods - when I write - I feel free. The book giveaway is still on until late thursday night. The winner will be announced Friday. See post below this one for more info.

17 comments:

Prayer Girl said...

Your words took me with you where you went in your mind - to the woods, by the water, and in the hills.

Thanks! It was a beautiful, freeing journey.

PG

Susan said...

write. write. write. Your words are perfect. You inspire me.

Just Be Real said...

Dear one, I hope it at least warms up just a tad so you can enjoy that freedom once again that you so long for in "your woods" to run and be close to God!

Man, I would love to experience those chickadees and woodpeckers flying right into my hands. Those must be some really tamed birds!!
I have always thought woodpecker being an aggressive bird. Like the Blue Jay. I do not know if you have Blue Jays in your area or not, but they can be nasty!

So glad that you posted. Glad that God has opened your heart and melted the anger and hate.

I always wait with anticipation for your next post. You always always always brings something to us all we can gain from through your words and life experiences.

You are so much appreciated!!

((((Sarah))))

RCUBEs said...

It's nice to be able to find that outlet to release your inner thoughts...And the best part is that your words do encourage so many out here. God bless.

Madison said...

Oh Sarah, winter hasn't even really started yet. You better buy a heat lamp and get a treadmill and a movie of the woods. It's gonna be a while. Your writing is always beautiful.

Kristen Torres-Toro said...

Sarah, I know exactly where you are. I struggle so much in winter. I love to do my quiet time outside, so this time of year is really hard for me too.

Karen said...

Write away, Sarah...to be blessed and be a blessing....

Deborah said...

It is so cold here too! Your writing is beautiful!

Denise said...

Write all you want sweetie.

Finally Free said...

Sarah,
I feel this way when I am in a spiritual winter. It's very hard when I can't sense His presence.
Thanks for sharing.

Blessings,
Tammy

Being Me said...

Like Pooh's words of wisdom..
Feel better..... be warm..
Hugs to you
BM

Colleen said...

I like Pooh's words too.
You have a lot of friends here and faith too - all can provide a kind of warmth for you. God bless!

Paula said...

Can relate so very much. Was already such a change for me upon my return to Germany. Living an outside and very natural life in Spain and later in Florida, being so much inside, made me feel caged and de-spirited me very much. Now the cold comes on top. Feel so very much like you. Love you

Paula said...

Needed to come back and give you a hug

Susan Deborah said...

My my look at Pooh standing reflectively.

A warm barr hug to make you feel cozy. We are all there to warm you dear one, forget the cold!

Warmth and joy always,
Susan

Wanda's Wings said...

Continue to write my friend. It is healing!

agnitrisha said...

beautiful way and words. your words have both.. beauty and depth.