Saturday, May 29, 2010

The Innocent

"I brought children into this dark world because it needed the light that only a child can bring" Liz Armbruster

Babies are cute...really cute....wide eyes....chubby cheeks....small chunky bodies. It's hard not to smile when being around them. The best is when they smile back or hearing their sweet laughter at the goofiest things. And kids are so much fun to be around with their neat way of looking at the world....and picking up on things most adults don't notice anymore..simple things....things that make everything they experience an adventure. 

But some look at babies and children in a different way....a way I don't get....a way that takes their trust and uses it to hurt them. Babies..children...they're vulnerable...innocent...trusting.

My daughter's school sent a note home...warning about some guy trying to pull girls into his pickup truck....making lewd comments....wanting to hurt them. Hearing that makes me think of what happened to me....it makes me afraid. I want to keep my girls home....keep them close...keep them safe....where I can watch them them....and where I can protect them.. 

The news is full of stories of children being hurt...abducted...harmed. Abuse  leaves it's mark...burning deep into a child's spirit and becoming their filter of seeing the world. I don't want my girls to ever experience that....to ever feel the terror or torment of someone's evil intentions. 

My oldest is going on a trip six hours away with her school next month. I have images in my head....of never seeing her again. I know it's irrational..... I'm trying to fight it....and give it to Him...to protect her and the other kids....A mother's worst nightmare are the perverts who roam the streets prowling on the innocent.  

The only protection I know for sure....is faith...trusting Him. He let me survive....He let me live.

22 comments:

Karen said...

There are some scary things out there in our world...but what you wrote..."The only protection I know for sure....is faith...trusting Him."...amen...that is our hope and assurance that our prayer coverings for our loved ones will be what the Lord honors according to His will....

Wylie @ Shout A Joyful Noise! said...

Remember sister that you are seated with Christ in the heavenlies, far above the limited power of the enemy.
Wylie

Paula said...

I remember that for long I acted like a very young child. hoping it would prevent me from hurt! Because tehy are so cute and irresistible arent they?
By now I know differently. Love to you

Elan said...

wow, being conscious about this letting go process as a parent is amazing. I know that I'm going to come on these challenges when I have children. I imagine that with your experience this is especially hard - which makes i that much more amazing that you are facing it.

Denise said...

Yes, we must totally trust Him.

NOS said...

That's horrifying to hear about the man in the pickup truck. I wish I knew why some people could be so... evil? Disgusting? I can't think of the best word.

I'm sure your daughter will have a great, safe time on her trip. But she is in my thoughts nonetheless. I can't imagine how frightened you must feel. But I'm here for you, listening.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Just_because_today said...

It is really the only protection we have, faith. It is normal to be afraid especially after receiving a note like that, and watching the news. But we must trust and let them live and be free. My daughter runs and I am afraid when she goes for runs alone. Sometimes I follow in the car from a distance. But I have to allow her to experience freedom. I pray. I have faith

Grace said...

The exact same note came home with my children last year and it scared me becuz I too know the harsh reality that are are some "bad" people out there.
Luckily, nothing bad happened to any of the children here...ironically, it was also a white truck!

I admire your faith so much...When my son was a baby, my best friend had a newborn son as well...and so we talked every day about the fun of being a 'new' mommy. I used to be so hyper-vigilent checking on my son every hour - all night long, living in fear of SIDS or hime rolling over and suffocating. When I confessed this to my friend she told me she never did that - that she believed God would watch over her son and keep him safe....
It must be relieving to have that kind of faith...

Dulce said...

I hate fear, I hate pain.., I donot want to punish anyone, but those who hurt a child or baby, no matter how sick they are do not deserve a place or even an opportunity to be in this world.

Holly Renee said...

This is honestly one of the things I think about when I think about having children. I wonder how you protect them all the time. I think you are very right that at the end of the day you put your trust in God. It does make me sad that anyone, anywhere could do harmful things to a child. I just don't get it.

Lily said...

I don't think your fear is irrational at all. I think that fact that you survived makes you all the more aware of how to protect your children. You think about things that other parents don't. Sometimes that results in heartbreak. Sometimes it doesn't. The world is such a messed up place... but you are teaching your kids the importance of being safe!

Prayer Girl said...

When I have done all I can to protect the ones I love and still feel fear, God is the only answer.

PG

Lynda Young said...

The Lord will watch over us. We can trust Him.
Many blessings

Just Be Real said...

((((Sarah))))

Syd said...

I have a lot of faith bit also think that God expects me to take some action of my own.

INSIDE THE SHRINK said...

All parents worry about the safety of their children. But when a parent has been abused or neglected, the worry becomes unbearable anxiety. You have dealt with your anxiety in the best way, by giving it to the Lord. That doesn't mean the worry goes away, but it sure is comforting. God bless.

Wanda said...

Only He is able to fully protect and He's able to keep that in which we commit to Him.

Deborah Ann said...

I know exactly what you mean. You can see kids in two ways. One - the pure sweet creations of God that they are, and two - all the awful things some sick twisted person can do to them. This is the worst injustice in the world. May God protect the little ones!

Paula said...

Passing by to show some love. Have deactivated my facebook account. With the upcoming walk to much to maintain. You are so right, we are so very idfferent, yet so similar. Isnt it wonderful and wonderous how the virtual world reduces borders by languages, faith, race, age etc. Connecting one by one.

Being Me said...

He let you survive for us who need to hear to survive too....

Thank you for your comments always on my blog.

Have something to pass on to you at my site.

BM

Beautiful pear tree lane said...

What an Awesome post, Sarah. Trying to completely trust God for my children, and now grandchildren takes a lot of work for me. Thanks for the encouragement.
Hugs,
Sue

INSIDE THE SHRINK said...

Sarah, just came back by to thank you for your kind words and joining me at Daily Grace. God bless you.