Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Direction

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go..."  Dr. Seuss
 
Decisions! I'm not the best at making them. Sometimes I think I like something...but I'm never really sure. I drive myself and my family crazy talking myself in and out of something. It's agonizing for them...and for me...but so many decisions...even simple ones... feel like a matter of life and death.  I'm never really sure if I need it...want it...or even like it. 

But there is something I know for sure....something I figured out these last few months...since I finally told what happened....and published my story...and won an award....and recieved so much support -  

I want to use what happened to make a difference for someone else.....to give hope and show that nothing is impossible to overcome: not drugs, or the streets, or an eating disorder...or anything. Sometimes it seems like things will never change and sometimes things may not always work out in the ways I want...but the Light does come on...and things do change....and freedom is possible.

People tell me I'm a good writer. I didn't know that. All I know is I couldn't talk...and writing has helped me have my voice. Through writing...maybe I can say other things...things which I've never been able to openly talk about. It goes beyond my personal story to systems and how they run.....  

Inside me.....there's a quiet whisper that pulls and tugs....pushing me to not be afraid to say those things I've never been able to voice....and maybe...just maybe I can make a difference for someone else.




 

27 comments:

NOS said...

Wow. This is a powerful post. And just what I needed to hear today. Thank you. See, you ARE making a difference for someone else. Your words mean a lot to me. You are very talented and very special.

Wishing you well,
NOS

MTJ said...

Hi Sarah,

I won't even try to say, "I know what you've been through". We've both faced adversity that could have easily taken our lives as it has others. By the grace of God, you and I found purpose in living and a joy for life.

I'm appreciative that writing has equipped you with a voice for many who remain silent.

Blessings and peace.

MTJ

Prayer Girl said...

I marvel at how God can turn tragedy to the good for those who love God and are called according to his purposes.

You do write beautifully and you touch the hearts of many.

PG

A girl needs 2 Talk said...

You make a HUGE difference to me. You know that, right? I always save your post until I've read all the others because the best then, gets saved for last. :)

I love everything you have to say.

I am sure your decisions will happen. Breathe. :) :)

Susan Deborah said...

Hi Sarah:

Decisions always elude me but I let them to. God is making good use of your talents in writing, praise god and use it well.

Blessings and joy,
Susan

P.S: Love the music here!

God Whispers said...

Sarah, you have blessed me this day once again. Just seeing how God works every area of your life is such a inspiration. You are such a breath of fresh air. Thank you. Blessings and ((((Sarah))))

Mary said...

That is exactly what you are doing sweetie! In speaking what happened, in speaking what God did, in speaking of your journey you give hope to others. You point to hope!

Blessings and hugs!!

Dolores Ayotte said...

Nikki,
That's the key...to make a difference in someone else's life. It's one of the only reasons I can come up with to help explain suffering. It seems to make it more worthwhile and meaningful when we look at it this way. We don't always understand but in the end if it is for the greater good...

Karen said...

No maybe about it...you DO make a difference!

Perfect Mind Storm said...

Nikki,

I am about halfway through your book and I have cried for you and related to some of the things you went through. I am starting to see a beautiful soul who overcame so much adversity. YES you can make a difference by sharing your thoughts. You have gained wisdom through your trials and I KNOW you can make a difference for others. Please do continue to write, not just about what happened, but about anything that the Lord places on your heart. You are a blessing and a treasure and I for one, thank God for you and your courage that you have shown already.

Foxglove Spires said...

You definitely do make a difference, to give hope and encouragement to so many. It is wonderful that you are brave enough to speak and write about it. It takes courage and your are truly an inspiration.

Finally Free said...

I always leave your posts feeling encouraged and inspired.......

So glad you began to write and find your voice. You are making such a difference in my life and many others.

Blessings,
Tammy

Deb said...

Your words always speak to me.

I hear courage and strength.

And hope.

And freedom.

I feel like I've found a friend.

Sweet dreams.

Grace said...

Sweet Sarah,
I have read your book and I read your "words" here...you have made a difference for me and sssoooo many others. You are a light in the darkness for some of us "Survivors".

mya said...

You are using your talents to help others, and I am sure you help more people than you realize.

dulce said...

Oh yes such a difference it makes. I mean for soemone else, say me, I 've gained three pounds, and always think 'oh no, this is never going to stop', but as I read this I get that hope and light that you always transmit through your blogs... I am gonna prove you are right, for myself.

We must thank God for giving us this greta gift, that of writing down and out what we cannot voice...

thanks Sarah!

Denise said...

Sweetie, you have already made a beautiful difference for many, love you so much.

Connie Arnold said...

Your words most assuredly do make a difference. Keep listening to that quiet whisper!

Paula said...

I used to rush into decisions and had to bare the consequences, sometimes good, sometimes not so good an outcome. Currently I am a bit hesitant in deicsions. I suppose this is a side effect of my therapy and I love it. I am sure it will balance itself. Love to you.

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Gabriella Moonlight said...

You write so wonderfully, honestly and yet you share your love and courage with a sense of self, which is hard to articulate in a blog. I am always comforted and find much to think on in your blog.
Thank you for being here!
xo gab

Terri Tiffany said...

You made the best decision ever when you decided to write your book:)) I know that you have changed many other's lives for the positive!

Sheila Deeth said...

Great post and I've just been reading the reader comments on your book. Wow. Let that whisper keep calling.

V said...

Sarah...
Thank you my skat (dear) you made me realise something on this important day. Have a job interview today and hoping i get it. I make the direction so i go!!!! Thank you skat

Crown of Beauty said...

Wow, Nikki, this post really touches my heart. In fact, all your posts do that to me, but the way you started off, talking about choices... it seemed like you were talking about me.

I find it hard to make up my mind a lot of times. That is why I miss my husband so much. He often made up my mind for me.

ANd until now that he's gone on to heaven, I still wonder sometimes what it is that GOd wants me to do. Really.

I know there is something definite for me, and God is bringing me into the right steps to take.

Like beginning to write my own book, a series of real life stories how I encountered God and how He's shaping me to be His voice and channel for the healing of the Bride in these end times.

Thank you for standing up to make a difference.

You are a voice in the wilderness, Nikki.

Love
Lidj

Perfect Mind Storm said...

Nikki,
I finished reading your book recently and I just want to say that I KNOW you can do whatever you are led to do. Whether it is writing or getting up in front of people and telling your story. YOU can do this and if not by your own strength, then through God's strength. I don't know you but I am so proud of you and you are a light and a blessing to me and to so many. I am cheering you on!!

Hugs and Blessings dear heart,
C

Syd said...

I am glad that you are finding your voice and your power. Just by putting myself out there to help others, I help myself so much.