I used to put all my energy....all my focus on surviving...just getting through each day. I was a fighter. I learned to navigate the streets - the system...to get what I needed just to get by....to survive....to fight my way out of darkness. When I became trapped....I kept one focus....one goal.....determined to get free....And I did - time and time again. I learned determination - focus - will......and even hope...hope that I could survive....that things could be better.
I've figured out....all that street smarts....all that fighter mentality....I can make work for me....to go after what I want. My best friend is always telling me I'm pretty focused....I get something in my head....centre on that one thing...and don't give up until I get it.
I'm not sure what my dreams are right now.....except....I want to make a difference. I want to empower others...help them reach for their stars....to not be afraid to fail....or fall and to never give up. I want to live with purpose. I want my life to count....I want Him to use those things I fought against to help someone else know they can achieve whatever they want.....
I think everything I went through put some principles inside me....it gave me determination to never give up. I can drive myself crazy with being so focused....but that drive pushes me to do what others tell me I can't. When someone says, you can't do that.....let it go.....it will never happen....something inside jumps into gear...jumps into fighter mode.....and determination to prove them wrong takes over.
When I was held by the rapist...I knew I would do anything to get away...to get free....even die if I had to. When I was held by the professionals...trapped in their system...I figured out what I needed to get free - once I got it...I focused only on that until I was free....Focus - determination - will - hope.
Nothing is impossible. Nothing is unattainable.
17 comments:
May all your sweet dreams come true, I love you.
Sarah,
I know God will not waste one thing we have been through. You are doing it now and I can't wait to see what else God is going to do in the future.
Thank you so much for all your encouraging comments on my blog. They mean alot. :)
Blessings,
Tammy
Sarah, you are such a blessing for all of those that view your blog. My prayer is that the Lord will continue to work in your life and give you peace while you do His will. God bless, Lloyd
Dear Sarah,
You are truly an inspiration....:)
Cheers always
Seema
So glad you got out of that torment! What a blessing when we learn to "focus" on Jesus. May the Lord continue to cover you with His love, grace, strength, guidance and protection. Take care sister. And keep writing.
You have already made a BIG difference...there is no limit on what you can do...
Your final sentences say it all....
Blessings Sarah...You fighter... so glad that you now can also add this knowledge to that which you held inside to survive and cope...that
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"!!! Nothing is impossible with Him... and now you have come into that glorious freedom and I'm so thankful that you won the battles this far! Your dreams are more than dreams, your visions and plans are held in His hand, now that you've given your life to Him alone... I'm thankful Jesus rescued you from darkness and brought you into His light to give this great testimony! "Because greater is He who is in you than He that is of this world!"
Love you and so blessed by your sharing! How wonderful that you saw the Watoto Children's Choir in person... I can only enjoy through virtual videos.
Have a great weekend! And hope to see ya' for SS too! I looked at your other place first and then remembered to try here!
I think being a fighter is the only way to survive in this world, and it sounds like you've got it down pat! I believe your focus and determination will get you whatever you want in life. It's a very useful gift.
Wishing you well,
NOS
Dearest Sarah, you DO make a difference and I believe you will continue to touch survivors the way you have touched me.
Much love, Gracie
May you see the Lord do great things through you! it will be exciting to see his plans unfold.
You truly are an inspiration dear Sarah!
I hope you will always have a most beautiful life full of much joy & many blessings!
Margie :)
You're a fighter alright! That's how you have come this far after what you've been through. Keep fighting all the way to the finish line, and bringing others with you. God surely has a plan for your life!
God has given you this realization and freedom so that you CAN do whatever you want to do. Go! Do! You will be the greatest advocate/friend/support to anyone you cross paths with. You will be because you want to be.
I am really thankful you are determined and focused. I am glad to know you will NOT GIVE UP. We need to keep going...all of us together. I have faith in our determination and in your focus. I have faith in this, I just do!
God is using it all, is using you.
You are using what you endured, survived to help others.
I am thankful you never gave up!!
Sarah, I am glad to have determination and willingness as two powerful assets. Those alone overcome a host of shortcomings for me. Thanks for sharing such an honest post.
It seems like you are living your dream.
Because you are making a difference to lots of people.
Including me.
Nothing is impossible for God.
Sweet dreams.
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