"This day, this moment, you have what you need to make your dreams come true." Oprah Winfrey
I used to put all my energy....all my focus on surviving...just getting through each day. I was a fighter. I learned to navigate the streets - the system...to get what I needed just to get by....to survive....to fight my way out of darkness. When I became trapped....I kept one focus....one goal.....determined to get free....And I did - time and time again. I learned determination - focus - will......and even hope...hope that I could survive....that things could be better.
I've figured out....all that street smarts....all that fighter mentality....I can make work for me....to go after what I want. My best friend is always telling me I'm pretty focused....I get something in my head....centre on that one thing...and don't give up until I get it.
I'm not sure what my dreams are right now.....except....I want to make a difference. I want to empower others...help them reach for their stars....to not be afraid to fail....or fall and to never give up. I want to live with purpose. I want my life to count....I want Him to use those things I fought against to help someone else know they can achieve whatever they want.....
I think everything I went through put some principles inside me....it gave me determination to never give up. I can drive myself crazy with being so focused....but that drive pushes me to do what others tell me I can't. When someone says, you can't do that.....let it go.....it will never happen....something inside jumps into gear...jumps into fighter mode.....and determination to prove them wrong takes over.
When I was held by the rapist...I knew I would do anything to get away...to get free....even die if I had to. When I was held by the professionals...trapped in their system...I figured out what I needed to get free - once I got it...I focused only on that until I was free....Focus - determination - will - hope.