Sunday, June 27, 2010

I never want



"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." Maya Angelou

I never want to forget how bad it was....
I never want to forget how dark and painful and lonely...that deep empty hole inside...Yearning desperately to be filled.
The hatred that consumed me.....dictating everything I did.....and which I unleashed on my body....punishing me for just living....and breathing and...worse having needs. 
I never want to forget the awful pain of having needs and hating myself for it.....

I never want to forget the kindness of strangers....who reached out to me....gave me food, a place to sleep, encouragement.....compassion. Sometimes just a smile from someone helped me get through a day....or a word spoken gently....acknowledging my life...the worth of my existance...

I never want my hand to be withheld from being extended to others...in their fight...in their struggle...in the their hope to reach for freedom.

I never want to forget.....

21 comments:

Finding Pam said...

I never want to remember the pain of my childhood. Never... I have buried those feelings so deeply, but I do choose to be there for those that suffer and need help.

My past helps me have compassion for others and I do want to honor God for my survival.

Blessings to you Sarah.

NOS said...

I think it's important for us to remember where we come from because we can learn from our experiences. And if you remember the bad times it will make you more grateful for the good times. It gives you a framework for comparison.

I hope all is well with you,
NOS

Pete Hoge said...

Thank you for not forgetting,
because you are in service
by reminding us all of how
God transforms our afflictive
emotions.

P.

Terri Tiffany said...

I don't think you will ever forget but you will learn to remember with joy that you can be a light to others:)

Jennifer said...

You always give me a sense of HOPE, HOPE, HOPE...and I am so thankful to read this today! Bless you as always.

And there is NO DOUBT you are encouraging so many along their way.

From Tracie said...

I think that remembering is so important! I want to remember each blessing that I received in the dark times (and in the good times as well) I never want to take those things for granted.

Mary said...

Remembering, but healed!!
I believe you will always remember from what God brought you, to where he has brought you.

You are a blessing!!

Just_because_today said...

if you learned so much, if you can reach out and help others then it was worth it.

Denise said...

Sweet sis, love you so much.

Being Me said...

We should not forget, but grow from it..


God Bless your week Sarah dear.

BM

Lily said...

You will never forget. You are just so better equipped now to be the kind stranger, reaching out to help the person who DOES want to forget.

Tonjia said...

simply precious and beautiful.


love you.

Paula said...

This is so much YOU; Thanks for cheering me on; I learn so much on this way and mostly to extnd the hand to myself as this is what I neglected for long. Love and hugs from somewhere in France. Paula

Just Be Real said...

Glad to know you Sarah to learn and be encouraged by your words. Thank you. (((((Sarah))))

Sandy said...

I believe that by living our
lives in a constant state of
thankfulness and gratitude to
God Almighty, we won't forget
all He has done for us. I
shudder to think where I would
be today if He had not brought
me up out of that horrible pit
I was sinking into.
God's Richest Blessings,
Sandy

Finally Free said...

Sarah,
Your writing helps me to remember to reach out.

Thanks for such a good reminder. :)

Blessings,
Tammy

MTJ said...

Hi Sarah,

It's good that others can find a voice that comforts, understands and encourages. Your words offer healing to many who've been hurt, battered and scarred.

MTJ

Syd said...

Sarah, I understand the pain. I don't want to experience it over and over. I do have compassion and love for myself and am able through that to extend my hand to others.

SE'LAH... said...

Greetings Sarah,

I'm glad I finally had a moment to stop by and say hi. What a great blog you've got here. Thanks so much for stopping by my Necessary Room and for joining in doing a random act of kindness. one love.

abitosunshine said...

In your remembering you reach out to help others; the kindness and compassion returned.

Blessings & a bit o' sunshine!
Ruthi
http://cafepress.com/abitosunshine

Karen said...

That quote by Maya Angelou is posted on the wall over my monitor...I think it is very profound...just like the impact you have made on others with your story of hope and freedom.....