"Try fighting with your head for a change ... it's a good one, even if it does resist learning.' Atticus Finch
Friends tell me....when I get something in my head....I grab on....and never let go. I always thought....it's because I'm just focused. But now....I think.....it's more that I learned to be a fighter...I learned to fight to get what I want....pushing back...never giving up.....holding on....
Having a goal....kicks in the fight....and in some strange way...energizes me. I feel pumped...geared up....and that thing that drives me becomes the only thing I think about.
In the past....I used all my energy to fight against what I didn't want.....fighting to survive whatever stuff was going on. That fighter mentality still kicks in...and is still very much a part of me.
I don't think it's a bad thing like I used. I try to use it now to fight differently.....to fight to win...not just for myself....but for others too....
At one time.....I fought dirty....using my body in any way I could to achieve what I needed. Now.....I've found my voice and I'm learning to use my words....focusing that fight in me to battle for positive changes and make a difference in my world and maybe in the lives of others.
I never thought what I had to say was important...but since publishing my book....and having had so many people read it and tell me my words inspired and gave hope and showed nothing is impossible to overcome.....I know now I have a write (right) to be heard...and a right to my voice.
The Old Fashion Way, Victorian Times.
6 months ago